Gaslighting?

Or is it a paradigm shift.

Can you be gaslit into experiencing a paradigm shift?

Is this a fundamental change in approach or underlying assumptions leading to a false belief or reality.

Was it really out of love or lust? If you're confused i'm fucking confused.

what even is that.

I think it was only trauma and some rebelion, maybe unlawful actions of others but i won't exclude myself or retell the things i've said.

the disrespect is real, hatred has been experienced. Why is it that we all choose to keep going? Life is cool, it gets chilly, I felt warm with you--forgot i was freezing.

Am i sheathing or uncovering everything from you?

Whats been beneath the surface was never called perfect so its been projected and you expect others to understand these ways.

they had it worse. them will never be there. He/ She/ Him- were never there.

sounds awfully depressing.

I kind of like how there could be growth within it all.

My being experienced a paradigm shift just now.

Am I quietly emerging into an authentic person?

Wasn't this always who I was though?

Am I gaslighting self again?

Silly shadow, elf's aren't for kids.

it is rated R for a reason- the disturbed are now uncomfortable, should i stop and pretend again?

Just kidding, its like whipplash. My hatred and love consuming one foot after another.

Hey it's not me its you. I mean its not you, nor me.

no its not in this life- i'm just thinking. overwhelmingly consuming.

they don't think, them don't care, he/ she/ him never thought to share.

A safe space in my head, gaslit to grow, or a paradigm shift-

its either C or all of the above.

I might keep writing without the right punctuation.

Fun fact: "Lightning storms are caused by the separation of electric charges within cumulonimbus clouds, driven by intense updrafts and downdrafts. Collisions between ice crystals and hail -graupel- generate negative charges at the base and positive charges at the top. When this electrical imbalance exceeds the air's insulating capacity, a discharge occurs.